1 post tagged “complication”
It's not all that bad, I guess.
On Saturday night, Paul and I got roped into helping out a family who needed a jump. I say we got roped into it cuz some random guy and his friend stopped us and started blathering about loosened terminals on batteries and Mexicans and... In any case, we went to help. There was a serious language barrier and my life-long Spanish lessons came in real handy. I wish I could say the story ends on a happy note (ah, community within the big city! Friendliness across race and class and gender!), and it sort of does. We managed to jump start the car, and I got to remember that I do speak Spanish and that it is a useful skill.
But the fact remains: these women didn't want the two guys who originally stopped to help them. I can't blame them--two women on a dark street with some strange guy and his friend reaching around under the hood of the car. They were asking me if he was trying to take the battery out, what he was trying to do, and I explained as best I could (I guess I missed the lesson on obscure car parts). But as we were pulling the car over to give them a jump, the two guys were striding off and pissed. Why? They were trying to help out and the damsels-in-distress wouldn't let them, because they were afraid of them.
I don't need to turn around and champion the cause of oppressed men everywhere who can't help out a lady with a car problem. It just reminded me of how fucking complicated it is to live in the world with other people. Premium White Morsels is driving me nuts for the same reason, because it's this hugely complicated situation, distilled into a black box with three performers, and we're pretty picky about how we do what we do. It is frustrating to come to terms with this piece as a failure, but when you set out to change the world and make things Right in just nine months, of course it fails. I still love it and I still want (need) everyone to come see it. But it's not what we had hoped; it's something else entirely. It sort of vaguely resembles the thing we had hoped for. In any case it is bending my brain in halves and quarters and clover-leafs and mobius strips. It is something to behold.
